Am I Pregnant?

The Rollercoaster of Emotions When You First Find Out

Welcome to a whirlwind of emotions! Whether you’re eagerly trying to conceive or the possibility caught you by surprise, the moment you wonder, “Am I pregnant?” marks the beginning of an incredible journey. Buckle up and join me as we delve into the thrilling rollercoaster of emotions that accompanies that life-altering discovery.

I regularly track my cycle using the period tracker app. So, when my period was 1-week late I had a feeling something was up. Maybe you’re experiencing something similar, peculiar changes in your body, or perhaps your intuition is whispering to you. And just like that, the thought plants its seed in your mind: “Could I be pregnant?”

Cue the butterflies in your stomach! The waiting game begins. Days stretch into eternity as you eagerly anticipate that magical confirmation. Every little symptom or sensation becomes a clue to solving the mysterious puzzle of new life.

There it is—the fateful day. You’re nerves seem to consume you, and with trembling hands, you unwrap the pregnancy test, praying for a clear answer. Time crawls as the little window fills with anticipation. And then, in an instant, your world flips upside down.

Positive.

A flood of emotions engulfs you, leaving you breathless. Joy, disbelief, excitement, fear—they all come rushing in, dancing together like confetti. It’s a surreal moment where the line between reality and dreams blurs, and you find yourself at the starting point of an incredible journey.

I went back to the Pharmacy two days in a row and stocked up on tests, just to be sure.

I’d always dreamed of having a family, but experiencing an unplanned pregnancy is often accompanied by a handful of not-so-great emotions, especially when you’re life is nowhere close to being in a place that screams “I’m ready”

But are we ever ready to step into this unknown journey, by far the most important journey we will ever embark on, raising little people to be good humans? 

There is no perfect time. But, In my case, there couldn’t be a WORSE time.

Telling Your Baby Daddy

To what usually would be an exciting conversation my body was engulfed in a million nerves that made my bones buzz like I was on a coffee high. I couldn’t call him right away, I was miles and miles away in a different time zone. I thought I was going to puke. So, I waited patiently, while filling the empty time with back-to-back Zoom meetings which my concentration was not present at all. Finally, I picked up the phone and blurted out the words “I’m pregnant” What a relief. And to my surprise, on the other end of the phone, I was the one freaking out more than him.

An Honest Look Into Your Emotions Over The First Week:

For some, you might scream with joy (this is the moment you’ve been waiting for!) Others might fall on their knees in a tantrum on the floor. There might be tears of happiness or thoughts of angst. You can’t help but replay the moment over and over in your mind, or maybe you try desperately to forget about it because you desperately wish you were not in this situation. You might laugh, cry, or jump for joy—it’s your personal script, and your emotions take center stage. 

From the sheer awe of creating life to the realization that you’re about to embark on a profound transformation, it’s a mix of emotions, unlike anything you’ve experienced before.

But let’s not forget the occasional wave of uncertainty that crashes upon your newfound excitement. Doubts and questions start to surface. Can I handle this? Am I ready to be a parent? Will I be able to provide everything my little one needs? 

And in my case, a few of…What’s going to happen to my body? I won’t be able to get Botox for 9+ months! What about my dreams I haven’t checked off my bucket list? I’m not ready for this!

Breathe. It’s normal to have these doubts. Remember, you’re not alone on this ride. Seek support from loved ones, talk to other parents, or seek guidance from professionals who can offer reassurance and valuable advice.

As the days pass, your emotions continue to ebb and flow. You find yourself daydreaming about the future, imagining tiny toes and little giggles. At times, you might experience a sudden surge of nesting instincts, rearranging furniture and creating the perfect sanctuary for your growing family. Other times, you might feel overwhelmed, wondering if you have what it takes to be the best parent you can be, Spoiler alert: You do.

However, normally it’s such an exciting and happy time, nobody ever talks about the negative feelings that seem all too taboo – the ones that leave you feeling extreme resentment and wishing you could turn back time. Nobody talks about these emotions because they’re embarrassing when this is supposed to be one of the most magical times in your life. In the next post, we will go there. Because with raging hormones and not-so-steady life circumstances – whether you’re thrilled or terrified, all emotions are normal that accompany this wild ride.

So, wonderer of pregnancy, brace yourself for a whirlwind of emotions. The journey from questioning, “Am I pregnant?” to embracing reality is a wild ride, filled with joy, doubt, excitement, and a touch of trepidation. It’s a journey that will transform you in ways you can’t yet comprehend and force you to grow in ways you never thought possible.

Remember, every emotion you feel is valid, and you’re not alone. Reach out to others who have been through this adventure and cherish the support they offer, grab a pen and journal until you feel lighter and more clear-headed about your newfound situation. As you navigate the uncertain waters of pregnancy, hold onto the knowledge that you are embarking on one of life’s most incredible chapters—one that will leave you forever changed.

Enjoy the rollercoaster ride, and get ready to embrace the extraordinary – no matter what you choose to do with your life-changing news or the waves of emotions you feel inside, there is no going back and the only way is forward. You’ve got this. The journey has just begun.